Music

I absolutely love music. In fact you might say I'm addicted, unfortunately I am not as addicted as I once was, but nonetheless... Since I was twelve I have slowly but surely been building my music collection. I have a vast array of styles. I also have quite a conglomeration of favorites. I don't just get into the music I also like to know a little of the background of the artists that I listen to. I find that I can relate and be touched by music more when I know that I can trust the "heart" of the music. I try to keep up to date on the Christian music scene. Every so often something comes up that just tears at my heart. I hate when that happens. It actually occurred just this evening when I went to www.jesusfreakhideout.com to see what was new. I have been looking forward to the return of an artist only to find out that that particular artist has an issue in their life. I'm not going to say exactly what the issue is, you can find out for yourself if you really want to. I just have a few thoughts. Do we ever truly know where music is coming from? What issues are effecting the artist? It's not anyone's place to judge anyone, but what do you do when issues arise and involve music that you love? You don't want to open doors to the enemy. Yet where is the line that says this is acceptable and that isn't? I'm not really sure. This isn't the first time I've had to do some serious thinking on issues and controversies that are running rampant in our society and it won't be the last.

Just Not Feeling It

I've just not been feeling blogging lately. Believe me I have sat down and tried but each time my mind and my fingers rebel against the thought. It goes something like this... "I should blog. What should I blog about?" So I sit down and log in and start typing something and before long I can't think of anything interesting and then I start thinking about other things I need to do such as homework or dishes or reading a book or text a friend and I my fingers start telling me that they are tired after typing up all that homework. I just run out blogging ambition. I don't think it's always so much I don't have much to say, my thoughts just run over and I get overwhelmed and then I "just don't feel it". I am trying to get re-inspired especially since I just caught up on reading my two favorite blogs. Modest is Hottest and Yaak Adventures.

This will have to be somewhat short however as I should be getting ready to go to church, but I'm not cutting it too close don't worry. I have been super busy (of course) and finals are coming up. I can't tell you how much I am looking forward to graduating in 6 weeks. I can't believe how fast it's gone. Many of you may be wondering what exactly is next for me well, I put forth some tidbits after spring break but here are my plans. I am moving home to my parents house deep in the boonies of MN for the summer, hopefully I will work at a camp near them. I had an interview with the camp last Friday and I think it went well. Either way I am moving home. Than in August I am moving to a big town that ends with an H that's closer to my parents house than where I am now. I am going to be going to college again and will be taking mostly general classes with the thought that I may decide to get a 2 year degree in business. Every time I have thought about moving somewhere I have kept coming back to this big town that ends with an H. So after considering my options. This is my decision.

Believe me when I say that this is not a decision that I have made lightly. It is also a decision that is not coming easy for me to walk out. Around every corner seems to be another obstacle that I have to overcome and another uncertainty that I have to avoid freaking out over. I have had to take it one day at a time. I feel like I've got most things taken care of now, but I'm staying on my guard.

I have been having some amazing fun with friends. I'm not always sure how I get it all squeezed in but I have to say that I love it :) Late night walks, time in the park, lots of talking, ice cream, texting, randomness these are all things that pretty much sum it up.

Well I have some other deeper thoughts that I want to post, but I have to get ready for church now. And I have plans this afternoon, so hopefully I will post again today, but don't hold me to it.
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