Here is a video of Kutless. Can you hear the fun?
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Wow this is sooooo Random
It's almost Spring break! And then I only have 10 weeks of class left! It's time to start studying for midterms! It's going way too fast, yet sometimes it doesn't go fast enough. Really though I am quite content to live my life the way I'm living it right now. And that way is busy, busy, busy.... And by the way this blog has no point just to make you aware of that fact early on. My brain is just really hyper right now.
I'm really looking forward to spring so that I can be outside without the risk of frostbite ;P. I'm just kidding, but really it has been cold and the last few days have been snowy and windy. I want to go barefoot in the warm dirt and smell spring and be able to take a walk and see the new life that spring brings. I'm not wishing the time away I'm just really anticipating what's to come.
Right now my stomach is making weird protests it wants food, seriously I don't really feel like eating so it should just stop wanting food, Right?
My eating habits the last few weeks have been terrible. My intentions of exercise and better eating habits are merely that intentions that seem content to flit through my head, they have yet to actually stick. There are few other things that I have good intentions about, too. I know that I need to make a change rather than just an intention. I just feel so busy and lazy when I'm not busy. Really truly seriously I just need to make a decision and stick to it. I know that's the answer, but sometimes it just feels like there are things you have to be able to just have so that you don't have to do them so that feels good. I don't know. I do know that that's not a good attitude to have. And it's one I need to change, but I don't FEEL like it. I am human you know I don't have it altogether like everyone seems to think I do. I feel like I'm lying to people when they think I'm just a perfect, serious, responsible, person all the time. I am most definitely human. Yet in reality I do my best to walk in the Light with the Word of God as my guide. So in a sense compared to how so many people live and view things I'm a "perfect goody-two-shoes". I am human and I do struggle, I just have the good guy on my side. I certainly hope that I am making sense and that I don't later regret posting this, sense I'm like functioning of adrenaline and sugar left over from a very uneventful day of school. I make wrong choices and I have to live with my mistakes.
I get to work tomorrow and Saturday. I like being busy and the money is nice. Yet that is the one thing that I'm starting to try to change my mind about. I don't want to be consumed by it. I find that all too often lately I'm thinking and changing the hours I put into work into $ signs. It's not bad to think about money, but it shouldn't be my focus right now. I've been convicted that it's the wrong mindset and you are all witness to the fact that I'm choosing to not be conformed to the world's way of thinking about money, instead I choose to be transformed by the renewing of my mind to God's Word. I choose to instead dwell on the fact that all my needs are supplied, I choose not to worry about tomorrow, I choose to focus on the fact that my Father God has supplied everything I have needed and will need. He owns the cattle on a thousand hills. I don't want to be so consumed with what's happening tomorrow that I miss out on today. I want to live every day to it's fullest. I'm not here on this earth to just live every day in the mundane until I die and go to be with Him. I'm here because He has an amazing plan and purpose for my life each and every single day. A plan for me to prosper for good and not for evil. There is a reason I am here breathing, there is a reason I'm alive. Since I'm submitted and living for the Lord, there is a plan and purpose for where I am. Some of it I may never fully understand, but that's alright.
Hmmmm I'm not really sure how I got into all this, but I guess I needed it. I guess blogging is good for something. I seem to always end up preaching to myself and encouraging myself.
Really seriously it's never my intent to blog about what I end up blogging about, some how though it happens. Well I have to stop procrastinating hanging up my wet laundry. Plus my adrenaline is giving up and my eyes are getting heavy and I'm going to start yawning. I have a lot I need to accomplish this weekend so I need some good sleep. I really do intend to post pics from the concert on here, but right now I'm feeling too lazy. Don't worry I'm going to change and choose to do something about that this weekend just not right now. LOL See I really do have procrastination problems that I'm trying to break.
I am sooooo thankful that tomorrow is a new day!!!!!
I'm really looking forward to spring so that I can be outside without the risk of frostbite ;P. I'm just kidding, but really it has been cold and the last few days have been snowy and windy. I want to go barefoot in the warm dirt and smell spring and be able to take a walk and see the new life that spring brings. I'm not wishing the time away I'm just really anticipating what's to come.
Right now my stomach is making weird protests it wants food, seriously I don't really feel like eating so it should just stop wanting food, Right?
My eating habits the last few weeks have been terrible. My intentions of exercise and better eating habits are merely that intentions that seem content to flit through my head, they have yet to actually stick. There are few other things that I have good intentions about, too. I know that I need to make a change rather than just an intention. I just feel so busy and lazy when I'm not busy. Really truly seriously I just need to make a decision and stick to it. I know that's the answer, but sometimes it just feels like there are things you have to be able to just have so that you don't have to do them so that feels good. I don't know. I do know that that's not a good attitude to have. And it's one I need to change, but I don't FEEL like it. I am human you know I don't have it altogether like everyone seems to think I do. I feel like I'm lying to people when they think I'm just a perfect, serious, responsible, person all the time. I am most definitely human. Yet in reality I do my best to walk in the Light with the Word of God as my guide. So in a sense compared to how so many people live and view things I'm a "perfect goody-two-shoes". I am human and I do struggle, I just have the good guy on my side. I certainly hope that I am making sense and that I don't later regret posting this, sense I'm like functioning of adrenaline and sugar left over from a very uneventful day of school. I make wrong choices and I have to live with my mistakes.
I get to work tomorrow and Saturday. I like being busy and the money is nice. Yet that is the one thing that I'm starting to try to change my mind about. I don't want to be consumed by it. I find that all too often lately I'm thinking and changing the hours I put into work into $ signs. It's not bad to think about money, but it shouldn't be my focus right now. I've been convicted that it's the wrong mindset and you are all witness to the fact that I'm choosing to not be conformed to the world's way of thinking about money, instead I choose to be transformed by the renewing of my mind to God's Word. I choose to instead dwell on the fact that all my needs are supplied, I choose not to worry about tomorrow, I choose to focus on the fact that my Father God has supplied everything I have needed and will need. He owns the cattle on a thousand hills. I don't want to be so consumed with what's happening tomorrow that I miss out on today. I want to live every day to it's fullest. I'm not here on this earth to just live every day in the mundane until I die and go to be with Him. I'm here because He has an amazing plan and purpose for my life each and every single day. A plan for me to prosper for good and not for evil. There is a reason I am here breathing, there is a reason I'm alive. Since I'm submitted and living for the Lord, there is a plan and purpose for where I am. Some of it I may never fully understand, but that's alright.
Hmmmm I'm not really sure how I got into all this, but I guess I needed it. I guess blogging is good for something. I seem to always end up preaching to myself and encouraging myself.
Really seriously it's never my intent to blog about what I end up blogging about, some how though it happens. Well I have to stop procrastinating hanging up my wet laundry. Plus my adrenaline is giving up and my eyes are getting heavy and I'm going to start yawning. I have a lot I need to accomplish this weekend so I need some good sleep. I really do intend to post pics from the concert on here, but right now I'm feeling too lazy. Don't worry I'm going to change and choose to do something about that this weekend just not right now. LOL See I really do have procrastination problems that I'm trying to break.
I am sooooo thankful that tomorrow is a new day!!!!!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
I Have to Blog
I like so have to blog. Times have felt a little rough and I've been like incredibly busy with life and "stuff". I feel like finally I have a breakthrough, I feel like I have my joy back to the fullest. Not that it was lost, I just felt like I was having to fight really hard for it.
Last night something happened that really encouraged me and I have been praying for it for awhile somewhere around 3-4 years, I think. In all reality it was small, but the fact that because of it I was up until 1:30 am and so I only got like 6 hours of sleep last night and today was my best day of school for like almost 2 weeks and normally I don't function very well without sleep. I feel like God really prepared me for it in the couple weeks.
I hope to finally finish the blog that I started on some of the stuff that I have just really been seeking the Lord on due to all of the sudden finding it around every corner. Maybe I'll even get some pictures posted from the concert that my brother and I went to. It was a great concert! I should have time this weekend I have to work for about 4 or 5 hours the next two nights as well as tomorrow morning. Plus I have some homework and I have some cleaning I have to stop procrastinating and just do it.
I just wanted to post and say that I finally feel a release from the baggage that was trying to hold me down and it's amazing feeling. I can't even describe it... I refuse to let this joy and victory be stolen from me. God is good and nothing can stop His goodness. He really is working behind the scenes even when we can't see Him clearly in our circumstances. And prayer really does work, sometimes you just have to keep bombarding the gates of Heaven, to keep standing in the gap for those areas that need help. Don't give up, by refusing to lose ground you gain it. VICTORY!!
Last night something happened that really encouraged me and I have been praying for it for awhile somewhere around 3-4 years, I think. In all reality it was small, but the fact that because of it I was up until 1:30 am and so I only got like 6 hours of sleep last night and today was my best day of school for like almost 2 weeks and normally I don't function very well without sleep. I feel like God really prepared me for it in the couple weeks.
I hope to finally finish the blog that I started on some of the stuff that I have just really been seeking the Lord on due to all of the sudden finding it around every corner. Maybe I'll even get some pictures posted from the concert that my brother and I went to. It was a great concert! I should have time this weekend I have to work for about 4 or 5 hours the next two nights as well as tomorrow morning. Plus I have some homework and I have some cleaning I have to stop procrastinating and just do it.
I just wanted to post and say that I finally feel a release from the baggage that was trying to hold me down and it's amazing feeling. I can't even describe it... I refuse to let this joy and victory be stolen from me. God is good and nothing can stop His goodness. He really is working behind the scenes even when we can't see Him clearly in our circumstances. And prayer really does work, sometimes you just have to keep bombarding the gates of Heaven, to keep standing in the gap for those areas that need help. Don't give up, by refusing to lose ground you gain it. VICTORY!!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Cost of Living
Here is an article I found that's very true and really encouraging to me right now.
Cost of Living by Jason Vallotton
The cost of living is high; it is not for the weak or the faint at heart. Anyone can survive but not everyone can truly live. Living requires courage; it will take all the tenacity that you can muster. Talk a walk down the path of life and along the way you will find many surprises. Men are shaped by the heavy storms that adversity brings, if you are smart, you will prepare ahead of time. The high road is never the easy road; it will grind you down to the bone and reveal the weakness on the inside. You will be given the opportunity to take advantage of each obstacle that comes in your way, for the visionary, these look like advancements, to the lazy man these look like “unfortunate times”. A man with out vision will never take the high road, there are to many punishing storms that drown the week and break the un determined. These men hope for good jobs and steady pay, they settle for mediocrity and patriotism only to forget that it was the paid bills of another man that created this freedom that they so carelessly enjoy. There are no hero’s without war; no victories with out a battle, there cannot be a testimony with out a test and no advancement without resistance. What are you in this life? What category do you fall into? Living must be intentional; failing to plan is planning to fail. Success does not knock on anyone’s door; it is hidden for the kings of this earth to search out. To measure your success in life you have to take a look at your potential and then go beyond that. We are not called to what we can do; we are measured against the standard of Heaven. If you are living in what you can manage, then you are settling for what you can produce and that is way below Heavens standard. Try taking a step beyond what you are capable of and place your foot in the steps of Jesus. So you don’t think you have what it takes, you are right, this road requires supernatural help. Our battles are not against flesh and blood, we are not fighting human beings or bad decisions we are warring against a force that is unseen to the human eye. Your discernment will be honed and your courage will be heavily tested. Living the good life is living a life that is out of your control with the peace of God covering you. Control is almost a myth, you can control yourself but you cannot control the circumstances of life, you can only decide what your response will be to these events. A response should be pre meditated, it comes through the years of structure that has been carefully crafted inside of a person. Building structure inside of you takes years of renewing your mind and consuming truth. The more you eat, the stronger you will be, eat once a week at church and you will be anemic unable to fight or feed yourself. The cost of living is high. Life is worth living and it is worth living right. Unless a seed falls to the ground and dies, it will not grow. Count the cost before you start; look at your life with the end in mind. We are all going to die someday, but we will not all live. What will you be?
Cost of Living by Jason Vallotton
The cost of living is high; it is not for the weak or the faint at heart. Anyone can survive but not everyone can truly live. Living requires courage; it will take all the tenacity that you can muster. Talk a walk down the path of life and along the way you will find many surprises. Men are shaped by the heavy storms that adversity brings, if you are smart, you will prepare ahead of time. The high road is never the easy road; it will grind you down to the bone and reveal the weakness on the inside. You will be given the opportunity to take advantage of each obstacle that comes in your way, for the visionary, these look like advancements, to the lazy man these look like “unfortunate times”. A man with out vision will never take the high road, there are to many punishing storms that drown the week and break the un determined. These men hope for good jobs and steady pay, they settle for mediocrity and patriotism only to forget that it was the paid bills of another man that created this freedom that they so carelessly enjoy. There are no hero’s without war; no victories with out a battle, there cannot be a testimony with out a test and no advancement without resistance. What are you in this life? What category do you fall into? Living must be intentional; failing to plan is planning to fail. Success does not knock on anyone’s door; it is hidden for the kings of this earth to search out. To measure your success in life you have to take a look at your potential and then go beyond that. We are not called to what we can do; we are measured against the standard of Heaven. If you are living in what you can manage, then you are settling for what you can produce and that is way below Heavens standard. Try taking a step beyond what you are capable of and place your foot in the steps of Jesus. So you don’t think you have what it takes, you are right, this road requires supernatural help. Our battles are not against flesh and blood, we are not fighting human beings or bad decisions we are warring against a force that is unseen to the human eye. Your discernment will be honed and your courage will be heavily tested. Living the good life is living a life that is out of your control with the peace of God covering you. Control is almost a myth, you can control yourself but you cannot control the circumstances of life, you can only decide what your response will be to these events. A response should be pre meditated, it comes through the years of structure that has been carefully crafted inside of a person. Building structure inside of you takes years of renewing your mind and consuming truth. The more you eat, the stronger you will be, eat once a week at church and you will be anemic unable to fight or feed yourself. The cost of living is high. Life is worth living and it is worth living right. Unless a seed falls to the ground and dies, it will not grow. Count the cost before you start; look at your life with the end in mind. We are all going to die someday, but we will not all live. What will you be?
Monday, February 9, 2009
Battling for Breakthrough
I have been battling for breakthrough the last few days. There is a situation that has finally come to a head and I'm having to deal with it. I thought that it was no longer an issue. It's not been fun. There have also been a few other things that when added to the mix just compound into a battle. But notice how I said I'm battling as in fighting for victory. I refuse to to give in to the garbage that the enemy is throwing my way. It's not that the situation is so terrible, it's the fact I'm fighting to not let it control my life, I'm doing my best to NOT make it the center of my attention, only God gets to hold that position. I refuse to give in, I refuse to budge on my stance. I'm not going to give into the discouragement and lies that are coming against me. I'm not going to let ANYTHING stop me from moving forward towards what God has for me. I refuse to move backwards.
It's amazing how I have had so much breakthrough especially since September and even more so, since I came back to school in January. Like I can't even explain it. I can feel God moving in my life. Even though throughout the last couple days I have felt pretty discouraged, just typing about the goodness of God puts me in this incredible place of just feeling God's goodness. Giving God the glory, revives me, gives me life, it even makes it easier for me to breath.
Don't get me wrong I feel frustrated. If I think about it too much I feel discouraged. I feel uncertain about my new class at school. Life isn't just peaches and cream right now. I've cried more in the last few days than I have for awhile. I just feel a resilience, a strength and a peace. I am so grateful for it, since the road definitely feels a little rough in some areas at the moment.
If you're battling for breakthrough in some area, remember as long as you're battling you're still going through, so don't stop, we'll come out victorious and gain ground when we come out on the other side, with God on our side ianything is possible!!!!!
It's amazing how I have had so much breakthrough especially since September and even more so, since I came back to school in January. Like I can't even explain it. I can feel God moving in my life. Even though throughout the last couple days I have felt pretty discouraged, just typing about the goodness of God puts me in this incredible place of just feeling God's goodness. Giving God the glory, revives me, gives me life, it even makes it easier for me to breath.
Don't get me wrong I feel frustrated. If I think about it too much I feel discouraged. I feel uncertain about my new class at school. Life isn't just peaches and cream right now. I've cried more in the last few days than I have for awhile. I just feel a resilience, a strength and a peace. I am so grateful for it, since the road definitely feels a little rough in some areas at the moment.
If you're battling for breakthrough in some area, remember as long as you're battling you're still going through, so don't stop, we'll come out victorious and gain ground when we come out on the other side, with God on our side ianything is possible!!!!!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
I got tagged
Ten things I haven't blogged about before.
1. I live in an apartment all by myself.
2. My procrastination problems
3. I love going to concerts (I'm going to see Kutless, Disciple, Stellar Kart and Esterlyn on the 15th).
4. My favorite colors are blue and silver.
5. Someday I want a car with silver flames on the side, not sure what kind of car yet.
6. My dad is a minister.
7. I like taking pictures.
8. I love picking blueberries in the summer time.
9. I've recently been considering getting more ear piercings.
10. Since I live by myself I mostly just snack on healthy food, I only cook about once a week.
Five of my addictions (not in any specific order).
1. Reading
2. Snacking (healthy food)
3. using the internet
4. overthinking things
5. blogging
1. I live in an apartment all by myself.
2. My procrastination problems
3. I love going to concerts (I'm going to see Kutless, Disciple, Stellar Kart and Esterlyn on the 15th).
4. My favorite colors are blue and silver.
5. Someday I want a car with silver flames on the side, not sure what kind of car yet.
6. My dad is a minister.
7. I like taking pictures.
8. I love picking blueberries in the summer time.
9. I've recently been considering getting more ear piercings.
10. Since I live by myself I mostly just snack on healthy food, I only cook about once a week.
Five of my addictions (not in any specific order).
1. Reading
2. Snacking (healthy food)
3. using the internet
4. overthinking things
5. blogging
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
A week in my life
I really wonder where my life is going... The days either go by way to fast or way to slow, I'm not sure which it all depends on what time I am contemplating the speed of the day. Anyways, right now I am working 2 jobs, both are on campus, since I want the flexibility of school holidays and jobs are really hard to find right now. I enjoy both jobs, I for the most part enjoy school, I enjoy my life here too. Yet I keep finding this inexpicable discontentment and this desire for life just to speed up, so that I can be done with everything here. Maybe it's spring fever, I'm not sure. What I am sure of is that it's not right, I really need to enjoy where I am at on the way to where I'm going. I don't want to rush through life and at the end find that I could have enjoyed it a lot more as well as doing a lot more. I don't know...
I'm feeling a little more confident about my IPC class. Which is good. I really would like to do well in both "non-culinary" classes this semester. I figure just showing up and doing my absolute best is the best way that I can get a good grade. I had to work last night so I tried to get the majority of my homework done on Sunday night, so that I had it done, but Monday morning came and I still had some reviseing to do. I didn't get done with work until 9:30 p.m. though so I had to come back and finish it at like 10:30 pm and then I had to get up at like 5:30 am so that I study for the quiz today. Work last night was good, it was the college's movie night and so I get to sit in and watch the movie "Miracle" it's about a hockey team winning the olympics in 1980 it was pretty good. the whole time I watched it I was like praying little popcorn prayers. It was kind of inspiring. There were just little things that kept reminding me of traits that I really desire in life. It was a good time between me and the Lord. I suppose that I could have sat out and studied, but you know what it was really nice to be able to sit back and just communicate with my Father God. And I feel that I did pretty well on the quiz and the assignment. I won't know for sure until the instructor hands them back, but still I have confidence in the Lord flowing through me to help me do my best.
My life is definitely not perfect here, I hope that I'm not portraying things like my life is perfect and I have a perfect relationship with God. There are times that I really want to scream, cry, yell and just not be here. I struggle way too much with way too much.
Well I'm not really sure what the point of this blog is. I guess I just wanted to write. I have some homework to do and some work study to do
I'm feeling a little more confident about my IPC class. Which is good. I really would like to do well in both "non-culinary" classes this semester. I figure just showing up and doing my absolute best is the best way that I can get a good grade. I had to work last night so I tried to get the majority of my homework done on Sunday night, so that I had it done, but Monday morning came and I still had some reviseing to do. I didn't get done with work until 9:30 p.m. though so I had to come back and finish it at like 10:30 pm and then I had to get up at like 5:30 am so that I study for the quiz today. Work last night was good, it was the college's movie night and so I get to sit in and watch the movie "Miracle" it's about a hockey team winning the olympics in 1980 it was pretty good. the whole time I watched it I was like praying little popcorn prayers. It was kind of inspiring. There were just little things that kept reminding me of traits that I really desire in life. It was a good time between me and the Lord. I suppose that I could have sat out and studied, but you know what it was really nice to be able to sit back and just communicate with my Father God. And I feel that I did pretty well on the quiz and the assignment. I won't know for sure until the instructor hands them back, but still I have confidence in the Lord flowing through me to help me do my best.
My life is definitely not perfect here, I hope that I'm not portraying things like my life is perfect and I have a perfect relationship with God. There are times that I really want to scream, cry, yell and just not be here. I struggle way too much with way too much.
Well I'm not really sure what the point of this blog is. I guess I just wanted to write. I have some homework to do and some work study to do
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