The Power of Our Lives

Life is good right now. Of course there are some things that I'm not sure about, that I searching out. Lately I have been convicted about the position that I have been given on earth. As I look around at all the situations that continually confront me with injustice and injury to those around me, I weep. I want to see things change for my family, for my friends, for the people I come in contact with in the positions that the Lord has put me in. Yet,I feel like I'm running, but it's because I'm standing still and not moving forward to where I'm supposed to be. I know what I'm called to do. It's what we are all called to do. God gives us a choice whether to walk in the authority He's given us or to turn our hearts and our eyes. However if we really want to see change in all of the situations we struggle with it's going to take more than a "sacrificial" prayer in between waking up and starting our day. It's going take more than being in church on Sunday and going through the motions. It's going to take getting out of our comfort zones and pursuing an awesome God. It's more than 30-45 minutes of worship and an hour of teaching. We are going to have to change things in our lives and prioritize to put God first. My heart yearns to see and hear freedom on Sunday mornings and everyday of life.

We've been called to stand in the gap "So I sought for a man among them who would make a wall and stand in the gap before Me on the behalf of the land that I should not destroy it; but I found no one." Ezek 22:30 God wants to move in the situations that sit heavy on our hearts. I will build a wall and stand to speak into the lives and situations where death is trying to manifest. Not on my watch! We were given authority, we were given the ability to intercede in the spiritual realm in all situations. Are we ready? Are we willing? Will we move? Will we get up an hour early in the morning to worship and pray? Will we give up after church activities to spend more time in worship with our King? Worship that will break strongholds. How far are we willing to go? I want to go all the way. I'm seeking, I'm willing. I want to lead the army of on fire saints. The cry of my heart is to live a purposeful life full of passion and whatever it has to look like. I will follow, I will give things up. I will walk it out to the best of my ability through God's grace. Will you go with me?

I Have to Blog

I like so have to blog. Times have felt a little rough and I've been like incredibly busy with life and "stuff". I feel like finally I have a breakthrough, I feel like I have my joy back to the fullest. Not that it was lost, I just felt like I was having to fight really hard for it.

Last night something happened that really encouraged me and I have been praying for it for awhile somewhere around 3-4 years, I think. In all reality it was small, but the fact that because of it I was up until 1:30 am and so I only got like 6 hours of sleep last night and today was my best day of school for like almost 2 weeks and normally I don't function very well without sleep. I feel like God really prepared me for it in the couple weeks.

I hope to finally finish the blog that I started on some of the stuff that I have just really been seeking the Lord on due to all of the sudden finding it around every corner. Maybe I'll even get some pictures posted from the concert that my brother and I went to. It was a great concert! I should have time this weekend I have to work for about 4 or 5 hours the next two nights as well as tomorrow morning. Plus I have some homework and I have some cleaning I have to stop procrastinating and just do it.

I just wanted to post and say that I finally feel a release from the baggage that was trying to hold me down and it's amazing feeling. I can't even describe it... I refuse to let this joy and victory be stolen from me. God is good and nothing can stop His goodness. He really is working behind the scenes even when we can't see Him clearly in our circumstances. And prayer really does work, sometimes you just have to keep bombarding the gates of Heaven, to keep standing in the gap for those areas that need help. Don't give up, by refusing to lose ground you gain it. VICTORY!!

Battling for Breakthrough

I have been battling for breakthrough the last few days. There is a situation that has finally come to a head and I'm having to deal with it. I thought that it was no longer an issue. It's not been fun. There have also been a few other things that when added to the mix just compound into a battle. But notice how I said I'm battling as in fighting for victory. I refuse to to give in to the garbage that the enemy is throwing my way. It's not that the situation is so terrible, it's the fact I'm fighting to not let it control my life, I'm doing my best to NOT make it the center of my attention, only God gets to hold that position. I refuse to give in, I refuse to budge on my stance. I'm not going to give into the discouragement and lies that are coming against me. I'm not going to let ANYTHING stop me from moving forward towards what God has for me. I refuse to move backwards.

It's amazing how I have had so much breakthrough especially since September and even more so, since I came back to school in January. Like I can't even explain it. I can feel God moving in my life. Even though throughout the last couple days I have felt pretty discouraged, just typing about the goodness of God puts me in this incredible place of just feeling God's goodness. Giving God the glory, revives me, gives me life, it even makes it easier for me to breath.
Don't get me wrong I feel frustrated. If I think about it too much I feel discouraged. I feel uncertain about my new class at school. Life isn't just peaches and cream right now. I've cried more in the last few days than I have for awhile. I just feel a resilience, a strength and a peace. I am so grateful for it, since the road definitely feels a little rough in some areas at the moment.

If you're battling for breakthrough in some area, remember as long as you're battling you're still going through, so don't stop, we'll come out victorious and gain ground when we come out on the other side, with God on our side ianything is possible!!!!!