Grateful.....

I am so grateful for my dad and my mom! This weekend was tough. I got blindsided with "stuff" a huge mind battle with the side effects of discouragement, grumpiness, crankiness, frustration, irritation, and a sense of just oppression. I fought really hard, then I decided I had to call my dad and he prayed with me and I felt freeer and I had a good evening. Then today I got hit with a lot of emotion. Again I called my parents they walked me through and prayed with me. It was a hard weekend for me and not a lot of fun. I am very thankful that I have people that I can go to when I'm struggling and can't do it on my own. I am determined and confessing that this week will be my best week in a month. The joy of the Lord is my strength. I have also been trying to listen to some of my really good music that I really know by heart and that has helped too.

Music is powerful. It played a big part in my attitude and me getting through my teen years at home. It's helped to settle things in my heart, served as a reminder, helped me through the bad times and the good times. There are days I struggle to press in and connect with the Lord and the one thing that has always worked to get me in a tune with the Lord is music. I love my music!

Anyways I need to work on some homework, fill out an application, tidy up before the week starts and maybe start some seeds.

Life is good and getting better! Hallelujah!!!!

Life is a Beautiful Thing

What is life really worth? I was just watching the movie "Bella" if you haven't seen it you should, it's really good. You really have to watch in more than once to fully understand it. I'm sitting here crying as the credits roll. We take life to lightly. Life is valuable. "Bella" is a movie about a lady considering abortion and how one guy takes the time to listen and share is story about his feelings on the sanctity and value of life. How often do we really consider how lightly we take/consider/value human life. Did you ever stop to think...about why you're here? I've been thinking lately about how all these laws that are being passed for things that are morally and Biblically incorrect, and how everyone is fighting for the laws to be changed. Don't get me wrong, I want laws to reversed and I don't agree with them in any way, but in these days it has to be less about laws and more about reaching out to people and touching their lives so that they are affected day after day. As each day goes by, it becomes more about the matters of the heart. Please don't get so caught up in the day to day monotony, or the frustration or exhaustion or discouragement, that you forget how important and valuable each and every life is. Everybody is here for a reason there is a plan and purpose, nobody is a mistake. God knew you when you were yet unformed. My prayer tonight is that the Lord will help me to remember to not take life for granted. In remembering the value and sanctity of life I think I'll be a lot less ungrateful and complain a lot less. Life is valuable and so are people, young and old, helpless, or completely independent.

I'm not sure I'm saying this how I want to say it, but the gist of it is here as well as my heart.

I'm tired, and it's almost over!

I am really tired right now. I guess it's a good tired, since I have been really busy during spring break. I have to go back to Hibbing on Sunday. It's been really nice to have a break. I have been helping my mom unpack and reorganize stuff that has been packed for 2 1/2 years. It's been a lot of work. It's been good to keep myself busy or I probably spent my time contemplating and which would have led to frustration and discouragement. Which would have been bad. I got a lot of work done and I am in a pretty good place, a little emotional though. But I've been dealing with that a lot lately. I only have 10 weeks of school left! I am excited about that. It should go pretty fast. This will have to brief. As I am trying to relax and prepare myself for the next 10 weeks, because they are going to be full weeks!

Time is flying! Just thought I would try to get a post in. I might have pictures of my spring break to post....later....

I don't know why I'm doing this right now

I'm not sure why I'm sitting in the game room of my apartment building when I should be getting ready to leave for a week?? I guess because I'm hungry and I was out until after 1 am or maybe I should just leave it at that. I really enjoy the one night a week that I take to be irresponsible, and before anybody says whoa that's not good and I get scolded. I go out on Friday nights after work and hang out with a bunch of young adults on church property until late into the night. The only thing irresponsible in it is that I'm out late. Anyways it was a good time and as always very interesting. You just have to love that about the human race as long as we're human we will act human and make life interesting for ourselves and others.

I am so glad that the last 2-4 weeks are over. One midterm is done, my first 4 weeks in the other kitchen are done, I'm recovering from whatever bug was attacking me (no not a literal bug!), I get to go home and leave this atmosphere and the emotional and everyday drama that is continually going on here. I'm so happy. I NEED a break DESPERATELY. The upside is that I am FINALLY connecting with other believers. They are so hard to find. The Chi Alpha group on campus is growing, yeah, and I'm connecting more with the people from the young adult group I go to.

My life has just kind of felt the a roller coaster. And I know that it's just going to get busier as spring sets in! I'm really excited for Spring, it's definitely in the air! Yesterday I ran errands in just a sweatshirt, no coat. It was like a whole 40 degrees outside. LOL!!! Well I had better go and do my stuff since I have to work at 1 and I need to have stuff done so that I can go home TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you tell I'm excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!