Homework, Work, Cellphones and Drama

Ok well I have been extremely busy with homework, but not so much work until this week. I am very grateful for my busy work week. It's been abnormally busy, after tomorrow I'll have worked 5 days this week. Normally it's just like two days a week. I am counting my blessings as well as planning on evading Wally World for a time. Ecspecially after going 4 days in a row last weekend, primarily for my costing homework, but how can you go into Walmart without spending money??? I don't know how people do it. Normally I try to only go once a week, but because of my costing homework I needed prices and that is the best place to go. I have to admit I am quite relieved to be done with my costing sheets for my cost control class. It was a lot of work.

The Big Picture and Letting Go

Some days it's really hard to look at the big picture. Most of the time it's way too easy to continually look at the valleys and at how high the mountain tops are. I was very grateful for my Aunt's reminder that in the big picture some trials are very small. Yet as we are walking through/up they seem like Mount Everest. I had to walk through a situation this weekend that wasn't easy, but God had been dealing with me on it and I knew I was riding the fence. It was really hard for me to bite the bullet, I cried and prayed my way through it. It wasn't fun, but I passed the test and I know God was smiling down at me. I know that what God has for me will be so much better, I don't want the counterfeit or second best. I want His absolute best for me. God and I have been dealing with this particular issue for awhile now and I finally said "Ok God I'll do it your way, I'll let it go and throw myself into your arms and trust." I have to refine my focus and look not just at what's right in front of me, but at the entire landscape.

Sometimes it's really hard to be still and know that He truly is God. Lately I have been struggling to keep my joy. Most days I feel like I'm just surviving, but not truly thriving. I need to get my joy back, I know that it's not a natural thing and it's not based on circumstances. It's supernatural and in it is my strength.

School is going well overall. There aren't too many things that I really want to complain about. I just know that things could be way better than they are.

First Day!

Today was my first day back it was good, just a tish boring though :). We went through syllabuses and did a ton of dishes, actually we did every single dish in the kitchen! It's a little sad because a few people it would have been fun to have back aren't back. The first year class this year is huge 23 people I think. And there are only 4 girls. I feel bad for them being outnumbered so. So far I think that the year is looking good. Life here can only get more interesting.

Right now I am reading this awesome book entitled "When God Writes Your Love Story" by Eric and Leslie Ludy. It's really good. It's very honest, truthful and full of thought provoking things. It reminds me of my parents and my aunt and uncle and a couple other couples I know. It's how I want to do it. I really don't want to do recreational dating, still it's hard to wait, when everyone around me is in some time of "romantic" relationship.

Hmmm I had another train of thought I wanted to follow and now I can't remember what it was... Oh well that's all for now I guess.

Peace Reigns, Love Wins and Joy is in the House!