So the best way to describe what I'm feeling is to give a description that maybe you can relate to. Do you know how it feels to be coming out of a black tunnel and you saw the light at the end, but than all of the sudden you were in it? That feeling of relief and joy and awe of the glory of the light. That's the way I feel. The feeling goes sooo deep. I'm content and peaceful and refreshed mentally, emotionally and physically. Well physically I get tired but you know, that's a good thing, because it proves I'm alive. I know life is probably going to get busier and there are always new battles to face. I have confidence in the God that I serve wholeheartedly and that gives me confidence to face whatever the next bend in the road brings.
Today is my birthday and I no I won't tell you how old I am now. It's really hard for me to explain the way I'm feeling. I have found my home in the cleft of the rock and I don't want to go back to the valley. I'm willing to fight. There are things that my heart desires for this new year of my life. Sometimes it's so heavy with longing that I don't know what I'm going to do. Yet I can keep my gaze on Him rather than on my desires. Yes I know He placed those desires in me, and in the right time I know they will be fulfilled.
The road to this place that I am at has not been easy and I don't have it all figured out. But I am reveling in it and I'm going to enjoy it. I'm going to take each day and be thankful for it.
I've found some safe places to be some safe people to be around. I'm getting out of my comfort zone. I'm pursueing, tasting, seeing, loving, living, showing, and testifying the GOODNESS of the GOD I serve. This is my joy and this is my song. The joy of the Lord is my strength.
Just so you know I am living in reality, I have to go do homework quick because I have a full day ahead of me. I just wanted to share something positive. Because life is positive.
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Thursday, September 23, 2010
Friday, November 6, 2009
Homework, Work, Cellphones and Drama
Ok well I have been extremely busy with homework, but not so much work until this week. I am very grateful for my busy work week. It's been abnormally busy, after tomorrow I'll have worked 5 days this week. Normally it's just like two days a week. I am counting my blessings as well as planning on evading Wally World for a time. Ecspecially after going 4 days in a row last weekend, primarily for my costing homework, but how can you go into Walmart without spending money??? I don't know how people do it. Normally I try to only go once a week, but because of my costing homework I needed prices and that is the best place to go. I have to admit I am quite relieved to be done with my costing sheets for my cost control class. It was a lot of work.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Sometimes....
Lately I just don't know.... Well I do but.... you know those days.... where....
I have had some interesting situations to walk through. When isn't life interesting? I've had a good week! Sunday I went to Duluth and saw my Aunt and Uncle and my cousins. That was good, it was a much needed break. I hung out with a friend on Monday, that was fun it made my day better. Monday I was fighting the why me's and feeling crabby and than I got a call that just made my day. Sshh don't tell that person :) Than Tuesday I hung out with another friend... That was a little more interesting, but I think I gracefully glided through it. Wednsday I worked after school. Despite the fact that it was my birthday it was a very low-key day. Than today after class I did homework and I went to The Edge. That was fun.
My classes are still going really well. It turns out that I am going to be chef for the first buffet which is next month. I'm a little nervous about that... It will be an interesting experience. I finished my Finnish menu choices for my cost control final. Now I have to pick the recipes and cost them all out. It's going to be a lot of work. I have learned quite a bit so far. It's really interesting to think about another countries food and how food gets to be a considered to belong to a specific ethnic group. I've been having fun in my baking class. It's been a really great experience so far.
I've been feeling so out of sync when it comes to some things. I so badly want to hear the voice of God more and more clearly. It's so important in this day and age. I don't want theology I want a revelation. I want to be so filled with the light of God that the darkness tries to hide. People don't need to just understand God with their brains, they need to see how real God is and really know who He is.
I've been thinking that I once again need to turn my eyes to the goodness of God. I need to look at all that He's doing rather than look at things I want to change. Maybe if I change my focus I won't feel so much lacking. I'm so sick and tired of this cycle that seems so pointless and endless. I don't want to be moved by how I feel because my feelings shouldn't move me so much.
I want to be able to handle some situations better....
Life just keeps getting more interesting everyday.
Still no matter the circumstances... Peace Reigns, Love Wins and Joy is in the House!!!!
I have had some interesting situations to walk through. When isn't life interesting? I've had a good week! Sunday I went to Duluth and saw my Aunt and Uncle and my cousins. That was good, it was a much needed break. I hung out with a friend on Monday, that was fun it made my day better. Monday I was fighting the why me's and feeling crabby and than I got a call that just made my day. Sshh don't tell that person :) Than Tuesday I hung out with another friend... That was a little more interesting, but I think I gracefully glided through it. Wednsday I worked after school. Despite the fact that it was my birthday it was a very low-key day. Than today after class I did homework and I went to The Edge. That was fun.
My classes are still going really well. It turns out that I am going to be chef for the first buffet which is next month. I'm a little nervous about that... It will be an interesting experience. I finished my Finnish menu choices for my cost control final. Now I have to pick the recipes and cost them all out. It's going to be a lot of work. I have learned quite a bit so far. It's really interesting to think about another countries food and how food gets to be a considered to belong to a specific ethnic group. I've been having fun in my baking class. It's been a really great experience so far.
I've been feeling so out of sync when it comes to some things. I so badly want to hear the voice of God more and more clearly. It's so important in this day and age. I don't want theology I want a revelation. I want to be so filled with the light of God that the darkness tries to hide. People don't need to just understand God with their brains, they need to see how real God is and really know who He is.
I've been thinking that I once again need to turn my eyes to the goodness of God. I need to look at all that He's doing rather than look at things I want to change. Maybe if I change my focus I won't feel so much lacking. I'm so sick and tired of this cycle that seems so pointless and endless. I don't want to be moved by how I feel because my feelings shouldn't move me so much.
I want to be able to handle some situations better....
Life just keeps getting more interesting everyday.
Still no matter the circumstances... Peace Reigns, Love Wins and Joy is in the House!!!!
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Interesting... Wow, is it Ever..No Nevermind
Ok so my blog title is pretty much just to catch your attention, because I have no idea where I'm going. I don't know if you've noticed but that's pretty much always the case. LOL
I am sure you would all like to hear more stories from my life here at college. So let's see... My psychology of adjustment class is interesting but there are somethings that get talked about that I go In it we have lots of diesel guys, this makes for an interesting class, as well. Last week we got to do a class activity. A statement was made and we had to move about the room to different sections representing whether we "Strongly Agreed" "Weakly Agreed" "Neutral" "Strongly Disagreed" or "Weakly Agreed". It was interesting to see where people stood on different social issues. I think most people where fairly conservative in there stance, to a degree. I think the class size is about 25 people.
Let's see what else. Oh, my roommate situation is going very well for those of you who are wondering after hearing my horror stories from last year. My roommate and I get along great.
So far my main instructor for the year is remarkably in a good mood, compared to last year. Which is great!!!! I have been having fun in the kitchen with all my classmates, it's almost like one big happy family! There are a couple people that I and everyone have to walk in a little extra grace with. This coming week is the first year's transition week into running the cafeteria kitchen. There is a grand total of 23 first years this year. For awhile no one knew what the final count would be. Every day it seemed they lost at least one and gained a couple more it was a little crazy at one point they had 27 students. My second year class is at 14 and two of them are transplants from previous first years. So starting on the 22nd of September, my class will all be moved over to the fine dining side and beginning to run the restaurant! I still can hardly believe that it's my second year of college!
As for activities outside of school, right now I go to the Edge on Thursday nights, which is fun. It's nice to actually know people this time around. :) Unfortunately I won't be able to attend Chi Alpha this year :( Despite the fact that they have it 2 days a week. I am a little bummed about that, but oh well. I do hang out with a couple of my classmates some evenings, which is an adventure all in itself. Of course one BIG consistent activity that I do is homework. It's not at lot of fun, but it contributes to a good grade so it is worth my time :) I am hopeing to be able to hang out with a couple of other people too. Oh and I might have a pampered chef party, that would be fun. There isn't a lot to do here in town, unfortunately.
Today I slept in! Yay!!! Then I lounged around for awhile, before running some errands. Don't tell her but I think I have my sister Sal's birthday present. Sshhh! I went to the mall (the term mall is an exageration) and checked out a couple things at JCPenney's. There is a hidden meaning in the previous sentence. I also had to go get gas and some groceries and gas at WallyWorld. I've been at work since 1 and I am getting a little tired of sitting here. It's not very exciting at all.
I'm not sure what else to blog about, tomorrow I'm going to church and then I need to clean my bathroom and do some minor cleaning in my bedroom. Oh and I should probably seriously spend some time on the next step of my Cost Control final. It's such a lot of work :P
Peace reigns, love wins and joy is in the house!
I am sure you would all like to hear more stories from my life here at college. So let's see... My psychology of adjustment class is interesting but there are somethings that get talked about that I go In it we have lots of diesel guys, this makes for an interesting class, as well. Last week we got to do a class activity. A statement was made and we had to move about the room to different sections representing whether we "Strongly Agreed" "Weakly Agreed" "Neutral" "Strongly Disagreed" or "Weakly Agreed". It was interesting to see where people stood on different social issues. I think most people where fairly conservative in there stance, to a degree. I think the class size is about 25 people.
Let's see what else. Oh, my roommate situation is going very well for those of you who are wondering after hearing my horror stories from last year. My roommate and I get along great.
So far my main instructor for the year is remarkably in a good mood, compared to last year. Which is great!!!! I have been having fun in the kitchen with all my classmates, it's almost like one big happy family! There are a couple people that I and everyone have to walk in a little extra grace with. This coming week is the first year's transition week into running the cafeteria kitchen. There is a grand total of 23 first years this year. For awhile no one knew what the final count would be. Every day it seemed they lost at least one and gained a couple more it was a little crazy at one point they had 27 students. My second year class is at 14 and two of them are transplants from previous first years. So starting on the 22nd of September, my class will all be moved over to the fine dining side and beginning to run the restaurant! I still can hardly believe that it's my second year of college!
As for activities outside of school, right now I go to the Edge on Thursday nights, which is fun. It's nice to actually know people this time around. :) Unfortunately I won't be able to attend Chi Alpha this year :( Despite the fact that they have it 2 days a week. I am a little bummed about that, but oh well. I do hang out with a couple of my classmates some evenings, which is an adventure all in itself. Of course one BIG consistent activity that I do is homework. It's not at lot of fun, but it contributes to a good grade so it is worth my time :) I am hopeing to be able to hang out with a couple of other people too. Oh and I might have a pampered chef party, that would be fun. There isn't a lot to do here in town, unfortunately.
Today I slept in! Yay!!! Then I lounged around for awhile, before running some errands. Don't tell her but I think I have my sister Sal's birthday present. Sshhh! I went to the mall (the term mall is an exageration) and checked out a couple things at JCPenney's. There is a hidden meaning in the previous sentence. I also had to go get gas and some groceries and gas at WallyWorld. I've been at work since 1 and I am getting a little tired of sitting here. It's not very exciting at all.
I'm not sure what else to blog about, tomorrow I'm going to church and then I need to clean my bathroom and do some minor cleaning in my bedroom. Oh and I should probably seriously spend some time on the next step of my Cost Control final. It's such a lot of work :P
Peace reigns, love wins and joy is in the house!
Monday, August 24, 2009
First Day!
Today was my first day back it was good, just a tish boring though :). We went through syllabuses and did a ton of dishes, actually we did every single dish in the kitchen! It's a little sad because a few people it would have been fun to have back aren't back. The first year class this year is huge 23 people I think. And there are only 4 girls. I feel bad for them being outnumbered so. So far I think that the year is looking good. Life here can only get more interesting.
Right now I am reading this awesome book entitled "When God Writes Your Love Story" by Eric and Leslie Ludy. It's really good. It's very honest, truthful and full of thought provoking things. It reminds me of my parents and my aunt and uncle and a couple other couples I know. It's how I want to do it. I really don't want to do recreational dating, still it's hard to wait, when everyone around me is in some time of "romantic" relationship.
Hmmm I had another train of thought I wanted to follow and now I can't remember what it was... Oh well that's all for now I guess.
Peace Reigns, Love Wins and Joy is in the House!
Right now I am reading this awesome book entitled "When God Writes Your Love Story" by Eric and Leslie Ludy. It's really good. It's very honest, truthful and full of thought provoking things. It reminds me of my parents and my aunt and uncle and a couple other couples I know. It's how I want to do it. I really don't want to do recreational dating, still it's hard to wait, when everyone around me is in some time of "romantic" relationship.
Hmmm I had another train of thought I wanted to follow and now I can't remember what it was... Oh well that's all for now I guess.
Peace Reigns, Love Wins and Joy is in the House!
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