Awesome God

Today has been a blessed day. I am continually amazed at the goodness of the Lord when I follow Him. It can be so hard to explain how I see and feel and just know that He has His hand on things. His timing is so awesome. Most of the time for me it's not really big "happenings" it's the small things, that all come together to create the big picture. So much of the time I get so impatient, I want things to happen in my time the way I want them too. Yet when my Father God orchestrates things with His favor involved.... There is absolutely no way to describe how exhilarating and incredible it feels, to have things happen and just know that it was Him. To think He cares for me so much that He reveals Himself in a hundred million ways over and over again. Things like money for school, a dream, a simple conversation, favor from my employer, a sudden remembrance of something that is needed, learning something new about someone, going to the laundry room at the perfect time, or just being somewhere you need to be at the just the right time. I love going through the day and all the sudden it hits me that what just happened was totally and incredibly God.

There are those days that I get discouraged, nothing goes right, I have terrible conversations, I do something wrong, or it's just a really bad day. The last month has been tough. But I know when the joy of the Lord is my strength those bad days don't come as often and when they are over they don't constantly nag at me. I just have to remember to enter into that joy. When God's on my side anything is possible. I have struggled with so much in the last year with so many things and there have been so many changes and so many curve balls thrown at me. I don't think I could have made it this far or keep on going without the continually realizing that I really am self sufficient only because of Christ's sufficiency. That I am infused with the anointed one's inner strength and living under His grace ( God's power and ability in me to do what He's called me to do). I don't think I would survive much less thrive without God in my life and I'm not sure how people live without Him. I still have a lot to learn on how to rely totally and completely on Him. But I am so totally willing to learn because every time I experience Jesus Christ's presence in my life, it's a miracle that I can't and refuse to live without. The cry of my heart is to constantly know that I am pursuing and living out my destiny so that I can truly be all that He has called me to be, because only than will I truly be fulfilled and satisfied.

It really works!

You know what you don't know what to pray but you know you need to because things just haven't been going right? Well just saying "God, help me" really works. Today went better than the rest of the week and I spent 12 hours of it in school. I probably whispered that prayer 20+ times today. I'm so glad I have God on my side! I really don't know what I would do otherwise.

This week just didn't feel like it went right, there were good parts. And I'm still not too sure about my IPC class.... I'm a more than a little concerned about the quiz today. Still with God all things are possible! I have strength for all things in Christ Who impowers me I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him who infuses inner strength into me; I am self sufficient through Christ's sufficiency, that's what I have to keep confessing over myself.

I am soooo thankful that today was my last day on bakery! It went really well considering the week it has been. Today we had a group of kids from Barnum came in and they got to get their hands dirty (or should I say clean) with helping do some bakery stuff. I hope they had fun and that I explained things well. Normally, I would try to get out of it and not enjoy it since I have to interact in a different way with people I don't know and yet I actually enjoyed it. All I can say is "thanks God." Then earlier this week I volunteered to work an evening function within the culinary program. It was kind of fun, pretty simple, yet time consuming. Afterwards we got to eat leftovers. It was prime rib, au gratin potatoes, a sauteed veggie medley, and cream of red pepper soup, with eclair type swans for dessert. The prime rib was amazing. Yes I know there are perks to being in the culinary arts program. My taste buds feel great, but my feet sure hurt. :) All day is was one class after another.

I am so glad for the fact that the Lord can help filter stuff, within our minds. A lot of people had a bad week, and when people are crabby they tell more dirty jokes and talk about soooo many things that I really don't want to hear about much less have it get stuck in my head. Sometimes the people I am around and the situations I am in just make my head spin.

This is probably long enough and I want to go do a couple things as well as get some sleep. Even though tomorrow is a day off, I need to go in and sharpen my knives, not a lot of fun. I am looking forward to going to a young adult group at a nearby church tomorrow night. I'm not sure what all this semester is going to hold, much less this weekend. I am so thankful that God is on my side!

Reflective Ramblings

With the knowledge of road condtions in mind yesterday morning I decided to take more mileage versus icy, unsafe roads. I’m sure that the times would have been about the same. Anyways during my 4 hour drive (I took a half hour break in there) I had plenty of time to reflect. Sometimes it feels so weird to think that I’m 18, in college, living on my own, making my own decisions and just trying to be the adult that I was raised to be. Really I in no way feel like I’m “old enough”. I have a feeling that that little phrase will be in the back of my head the rest of my life as I often here it uttered by my parents or grandparents and many other poeple.

That said today has been pretty normal. For supper I'm having a Mexican bean bake which I am making unvegetarian by adding some chicken. It's very interesting. I made it yesterday and I decided that it did need chicken even though it is a complete protein without the chicken. I guess the last few days have been days for reflecting. I'm really not sure what I've been reflecting in the entire time, oh well. I did enjoy being home and spending time with my family.

Well I have to go study for a quiz on Thursday in IPC (Interpersonal Communications). Life sure is interesting.

A loooong weekend

I get a long weekend since there is no school on Monday. They rarely cancel school here no matter what. Of course I do have to work tomorrow night and Saturday afternoon. I'm hoping I get to go home Saturday after work so that I can celebrate my brother's 16th birthday, do laundry, have my mom's advice on my homework and get away from everything here. I can't believe that I already want to escape from stuff in my life. Really... I've only had 4 days of school. Another benefit of going home is that I get to go to Church in the Woods. I enjoy going to church there.

My math class should be easy, it's pretty basic, but my IPC class that's a different story. I think it will strech me big time. My computer class... I'm not sure what to think about it....

My car is having problems, I'm sooo thankful my daddy is willing to help me. He traded cars with me, as my car doesn't seem to like to start. It did start in cold weather before and now it's not starting.

Well I want to run to the library quick so that I have something to do tonight, even though I should start my homework ;).

It's cooooolllllld outside!!!!!!

Cold is not my thing. Ecspecially when my car does not start and I have to walk to work.

Anyways, I started two out of my three new classes so far. And I am going to be buuuuusssssyyyyy, this semester. At least I am not alone. One of my classmates and I are going to get together and do our homework for our Computer Applications class together on Fridays. I don't have any class on Fridays!!! It means I get a long weekend. More time to do homework, I guess. I really don't have much exciting to say. My culinary classes are a lot of work on my feet for pretty much 6 hours straight. As of right now I'm on bakery and it's pretty fun.

Later.....

Back at School

Well I'm back at my apartment so that I can start my second semester on Monday. And wow is it weird to be back! This, as my very first blog isn't going to be very long. I figured I should get started my first day back at school otherwise I might never actually start.

I'm really thankful that I for the Lord's provision, as of right now I will not have to go into any debt for my entire first year of school. I'm just in awe of His awesomeness in providing in entirely unexpected and surprising ways, not just in money, but also in every area of my life. My parents have lived the life of faith my entire life, the Lord's provision never gets old.

I had better go so I can talk to one of my little sisters!