Done and Moving On.....

I completed what I set out to accomplish. I graduated from HCC's Culinary Arts program! It still feels so surreal. I did much better than I thought I would but than again everybody says that they didn't expect anything less. I moved home and I started my summer job 3 days later (in other words 3 days ago.) Soon I will be working 8 hour days right now I've just been working 3-5 hour days since it's just cleaning right now and staff doesn't arrive for another couple of days. I think this summer job will stretch me for sure. There will be a 3 day break in July which I think after working 6 days a week I will be more than ready for. I will get done in August around the 16th and school starts the 23rd. After the last year of school and my summer job school will probably be a breeze. I'm only taking 16 credits, with two classes being online and the other 4 only averaging around 4 hours of on campus class time. It will surely be strange after being in school at least 6 hours a day and up to 14 hours a day for the last two years. I am definitely going to have to find a way to stay in shape. I don't yet know where I will be living in D-town I have done some looking but the more I look the more I lose my peace. So whatever God has in store, I know it will be good, I just am not aware of it yet. All I know for sure is that I know that I'm supposed to move to D-town and I am registered for classes at the two-year college there.

Most days it is way to easy to look ahead and start panicking because I have no clue how things are going to come together and no idea what even needs to come together. I have a feeling that there are some interesting days coming my way. God has big things in store. So many people seem to think that there are big things ahead for me. I know some of what is on my heart for the future I just don't yet know how it will all fall into place. I am doing my best not to have a paper plate mentality while I'm "waiting". Waiting is almost the wrong word because in reality I'm walking through and everyday is the day that I need to live for.

I'm really tired of getting worn out from daily life, I feel as if I have no ambition at this time. It really frustrates me. I need to get into the Word more and pray. Life can not take over anymore. Well I have some other thoughts to share but I am exhausted and I have to work in the morning. I actually get to do some baking rather than just cleaning the kitchen. It is a huge kitchen!!

F.R.O.G. O.A.D.B. (Fully Relying on God on a Daily Basis)

Music

I absolutely love music. In fact you might say I'm addicted, unfortunately I am not as addicted as I once was, but nonetheless... Since I was twelve I have slowly but surely been building my music collection. I have a vast array of styles. I also have quite a conglomeration of favorites. I don't just get into the music I also like to know a little of the background of the artists that I listen to. I find that I can relate and be touched by music more when I know that I can trust the "heart" of the music. I try to keep up to date on the Christian music scene. Every so often something comes up that just tears at my heart. I hate when that happens. It actually occurred just this evening when I went to www.jesusfreakhideout.com to see what was new. I have been looking forward to the return of an artist only to find out that that particular artist has an issue in their life. I'm not going to say exactly what the issue is, you can find out for yourself if you really want to. I just have a few thoughts. Do we ever truly know where music is coming from? What issues are effecting the artist? It's not anyone's place to judge anyone, but what do you do when issues arise and involve music that you love? You don't want to open doors to the enemy. Yet where is the line that says this is acceptable and that isn't? I'm not really sure. This isn't the first time I've had to do some serious thinking on issues and controversies that are running rampant in our society and it won't be the last.

Just Not Feeling It

I've just not been feeling blogging lately. Believe me I have sat down and tried but each time my mind and my fingers rebel against the thought. It goes something like this... "I should blog. What should I blog about?" So I sit down and log in and start typing something and before long I can't think of anything interesting and then I start thinking about other things I need to do such as homework or dishes or reading a book or text a friend and I my fingers start telling me that they are tired after typing up all that homework. I just run out blogging ambition. I don't think it's always so much I don't have much to say, my thoughts just run over and I get overwhelmed and then I "just don't feel it". I am trying to get re-inspired especially since I just caught up on reading my two favorite blogs. Modest is Hottest and Yaak Adventures.

This will have to be somewhat short however as I should be getting ready to go to church, but I'm not cutting it too close don't worry. I have been super busy (of course) and finals are coming up. I can't tell you how much I am looking forward to graduating in 6 weeks. I can't believe how fast it's gone. Many of you may be wondering what exactly is next for me well, I put forth some tidbits after spring break but here are my plans. I am moving home to my parents house deep in the boonies of MN for the summer, hopefully I will work at a camp near them. I had an interview with the camp last Friday and I think it went well. Either way I am moving home. Than in August I am moving to a big town that ends with an H that's closer to my parents house than where I am now. I am going to be going to college again and will be taking mostly general classes with the thought that I may decide to get a 2 year degree in business. Every time I have thought about moving somewhere I have kept coming back to this big town that ends with an H. So after considering my options. This is my decision.

Believe me when I say that this is not a decision that I have made lightly. It is also a decision that is not coming easy for me to walk out. Around every corner seems to be another obstacle that I have to overcome and another uncertainty that I have to avoid freaking out over. I have had to take it one day at a time. I feel like I've got most things taken care of now, but I'm staying on my guard.

I have been having some amazing fun with friends. I'm not always sure how I get it all squeezed in but I have to say that I love it :) Late night walks, time in the park, lots of talking, ice cream, texting, randomness these are all things that pretty much sum it up.

Well I have some other deeper thoughts that I want to post, but I have to get ready for church now. And I have plans this afternoon, so hopefully I will post again today, but don't hold me to it.
Later-

Well People I'm Back, I Think....

Here I am blogger world. I have been going hither and thither this semester. Doing a ton of homework along with going to class and working. Keeping busy is a good thing. I just don't have time to blog or doing very many other things that are very fun. I am almost done though here in Hibtown! This fact I am very excited about. I have no idea what has gotten into me but I have decided that after I graduate in May I am going back to school in nearby D-town. I can hardly believe it myself. I have filled out the application and I am just waiting for my mom to send my highschool transcripts. I have been debating on what to do for some time now and I haven't really hit upon anything that really made me sit up and take notice. The one thing that I have kept coming back to is D-town. So that's where I'm headed, after some input from my father, haha. No mom if you're reading this I am not moving to D-town in the fall just because of what dad said. This summer I am hoping to be working close to my parents house at a job that will be full-time for around ten weeks. Well that's all the time I have to update ya'll right now. Adios :)

Blogging soon

I will be blogging soon for anyone that is still following my blog.

Outta Here

I just want outta here to go far far away from the toture of being responsible. I don't want to do my homework, I don't want to get up early and go to school. I don't want to! I am so busy! The only reason I have time to blog is because I'm procrastinating. I don't want to write my three page paper for my Restaurant Management class. Right now I don't really care that it's due at midnight and I am no where near done. What a day at school! Ugh! The health inspector came today, soup spilled all over the floor, some of the food wasn't ready to go out on time, some people recieved raw fish, people didn't want to listen to my instructions and they were supposed to. It was frustrating. My parents came over on Saturday, with my sisters (the boys stayed home) and it was a lot of fun. Sunday I took some time to just chill out, after i went to church, walmart and a booksale. I shouldn't not have chilled out. I should have done homework. The word relax can not be allowed to be in my vocabulary. I love to hang with friends, but maybe I shouldn't. I feel so far behind. I have absolutely no time anymore. I'm busy morning noon and night. I haven't even had time to laundry, and now i'm going to have to make time, because I have no clean laundry. I was going to wait until I go to my parents house. But I can't. I sure hope that that there is at least one washer open. I wish I could just get ahead in some of this homework, but most days I am barely maintaining! Ugh! I guess I should get off of here and stop procrastinating....

It's a New Year!!!

I know, I know I have been very negligent in my blogging habits. I really have had good intentions, but I can honestly say that it hasn't been on the top of my priorities.

I stayed at the dorms and worked for about half of Christmas break and the other half I was with my family. I actually got to do something I've been wanting to do for almost two years! I traveled with my dad, it was a great time. The time with my family was very nice too but it went way to fast, due to the fact that it was kinda chopped up.

I am now in my 4th and final semester of college! Well maybe final, I guess I should say it this way, it's the final semester to my goal of a 2 year diploma in culinary arts. I have to say that I am very relieved and excited. I'll be even more relieved once I'm done, because this semester has already been a ton of work and it's only been two weeks! Balancing school, I have a crazy class schedule, work and 5x as much homework as I am used to. I have been sooo tired lately, I need to get more sleep....

Christmas Break!!!

Woohoo I have 3 weeks off from school!!! I am so glad for a break from the drama and work of school. I did get good news that I didn't expect but I am totally happy about. I received straight "A"s! I was very surprised. All my Christmas shopping is done and they are basically all wrapped for when I get to go home on Wednesday! I am very excited to be going home. First, I have to get through two more days of work and than I get to leave. I'm not sure if I'm happy or sad that work is not a lot of work. It just gets kinda boring but I guess I can live with that. Tonight I am working someone else's shift for them. It will be nice to have a little extra money. Back to the Christmas presents. I am really looking forward to watching people open their presents, I'm really excited at some of the things I found for my siblings, but of course I can't say exactly what they are becauseof course my family reads this blog. I need to get some baking done to bring home, but I haven't been able to get any done yet! I have been way too busy! Although I will admit that I haven't totally minded spending quality time with some friends in Hibbing the last 3 nights. Ok I'm going to post this because otherwise, who knows what will happen lol.

My roommate and I wrapped our front door with Christmas wrapping paper!!!

This is a picture of my baking final, I have no idea what my grade for it is. I really want to know!!!

Slogging Through, but I'm Still Moving

The past couple of weeks I feel as though I've been slogging through school like you would slog through mud knee deep. I know that is quite the picture. On the 22 I was sick in bed all day after throwing up most of the night. I think that I ate something bad. That was after I had to work a birthday party all by myself. It wasn't bad, but it was an adventure. So needless to say I didn't feel very well on Monday, some of my muscles were very sore. I was very glad that last week was a short week. Wednesday I got to home for thanksgiving which was totally awesome!!! I got to go to a totally AWESOME concert on Sunday. The Letter Black opened and they were followed by Decyfer Down, Hawk Nelson and finally SKILLET!!! I was very glad that one of my friends from school wanted to go so we went together. It was a fun day all around. I intend to post pictures but right now I'm a work and my pictures are on my laptop at my apartment. So I'll have to get on that later. Than on Monday I started getting a cold, I'm doing my best to fight it. My immune system is probably down from all the stress of finals coming up here and a few other things. Really I think finals will go fine. I already submitted my final paper for my psych class and from my grade online I got an A. It's really an easy class, but it's not a class that I have enjoyed very much. Due to it's sometimes "graphic" content. Lots of time was spent discussing things I really didn't want to learn about. It did give me a greater appreciation for the way my parents lovingly raised me. I have to say that my eyes have been opened even more this year than last year and if I didn't fight to keep my hope I could lose it in the blink of an eye. There's people having affairs, girls getting pregnant and than ending it. People partying because it's the only way to cope and so much more. And people spend time wondering why the world is in the state it's in. Did you know that colleges are seriously thinking about adding a mental health fee to college tuition? College faculties are finding that they don't have the resources to handle the depression and all the mental health problems that students are having. Suicide rates among college students have climbed dramatically.

I have to say that I am eagerly looking forward to being done with school in May, because I am so tired of all the "stuff" that goes on, especially here in HCC. Even though I don't know what I'm going to do when I'm done here. I still don't feel like I've gotten any clear direction from the Lord on the matter. I'm just doing my best to walk it out day by day. I am thankful for the fact that I know my parents are standing behind me a hundred percent and that I can move home in May if I want/need to. I really don't want to drive though so much, like I did last summer. I really want to have a life outside of my car. So if I live at my parents more than likely I will have to drive a good distance to be able to work and not working is not an option unless that's what the Lord says, although I don't think that "don't work" is something He would tell me.

Anyways back to the present... School is winding up thankfully, I'm most definitely ready for a break. For a good part of Christmas break though I plan to stay in my apartment in order to work and save some money which I hope is possible. The saving money part is what I hope is possible, I know that I can work. I'm pretty much done with Christmas shopping, Yay! There's still a couple people I need to buy for. I'm pretty excited because I was able to get some really cool stuff this year for presents. Well I can't think of anything else to say for the moment so I think I will say adios.